Fears, Doubts and Insecurities
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I felt pressed to share this story with you, as I continue to grow, evolve in my business and find my true calling. I know exactly what I wanted to do with my life and that is to help and support women in creating a truly rich and fulfilling life and the only way I know how to do it is through travel and having the right mindset. The right mindset for me is my faith in God and the trust I have in what he has called me to do.

I have realised now for some time that whenever I am about to have a huge breakthrough in my life, whether it be spiritual, financial, physical, personal, career whatever it is I always meet a negative block or resistance that I MUST overcome. Most of the times that block that comes in my path is so huge that I am overcome with huge fear and doubts that I feel I can no way overcome. That’s the times I turn to God and my faith and I am always reassured that I will overcome and I will prevail! These are the times I so want to give up but my faith pushes me on more than ever. My faith and my conviction that I was not meant to be mediocre or ‘normal’. I was meant to do great things in my life and every one of us have, we just ignore that calling. I was called to bring change and transformation, to set an example and bring others into the light. This time the negative force is here and present and real and I wanted to share it with you.

For the last year, I felt an overpowering conviction to start my own business to help women and to help my small island St. Vincent and the Grenadines as well as its people. The only way I knew how to do that was through my qualifications and training in Travel and Tourism, my desire and passion to travel and my ever present optimistic outlook on life. During my 2 years in Cyprus I have explored different ideas until I felt a pulled in the field Travel Coaching as we as offering tours on the island. This way I can reach more women, give the help and support that they need to create a better life for themselves, far more than they ever could imagine. When we were told about out impending move to the UK, I knew without a doubt that this was the chance I was getting to work on my business fulltime. To develop, grow and expand this business to help more women worldwide. I decided that if I wanted this to be a real successful business I needed to have professional coach and start looking at achieving my coaching qualifications.

But lately I have been pressed with an overwhelming feeling of fear, doubt and insecurity in my business and in my plan. I have prayed and I have consulted with God and I knew I was on the right part. I could feel it in my bones, the excitement, the passion and the drive that this was my calling. But then I started questioning myself, who am I to want to start a business? Who was I kidding? I better do just like everyone else and start looking for a real job! I can never do this! The voices were getting stronger and stronger, until I give in and started googling jobs in my area.  I was already giving up on my dream without anyone even telling me these things!! Sometimes I feel so weak and afraid, it’s embarrassing.

As I was wallowing in self pity I was scrolling through facebook and an amazing lady who I had just completed a business class with had a live call on her business page and I stopped and listened. As I listened to the message she was sharing an immense feeling of relieve washed over me, just like it was being poured upon my head from a bucket, tears came to my eyes. Her message was about not trusting in your own power but having faith that Jesus is by your side. She was saying everything I was feeling about being overwhelmed about your business and your purpose. Having fear and doubt but God had reminded her that she was not doing it alone. He has given us this dream for a reason and he was going to see it through in us. All we need to do is trust and believe!

I went to bed that night in blissfulness, full of hope and renewed faith in my business endeavour. This was also the night before my 2 hour bonus session with my new business coach. 2 days ago I was scheduled to have this meeting but I had no internet a few hours before, so I cancelled and just a few hours after I cancelled the internet arrived. Do you see where I am going with this? The forces of darkness and negativity was real. It was finding every way to try to stop me from going forward. But silly me I still didn’t recognise this. I awoke the next morning so excited, I couldn’t wait for my session to have my business outlined and get the help that I need to grow and reach as many women as possible.

The hour came and after 2 hours I was full of hope, I could see my path clearer. I had a ton of work to do but I was not daunted. I am ready to do what it takes to get this business off the ground, I was committed more than ever now. My coach saw my vision, she loved it and she already gave me steps to start taking action. I sat down that night doing more research when I felt the painful bump at the back of my head. I had felt it a few days a back but took it as nothing, google said it maybe a strain after not sleeping well. I didn’t sleep very well on the plane a few days aback.  So I took no note to that and went on to life as usual. But tonight the bump felt different. It was painful and I went searching on google again. What I saw brought the fears, doubts and insecurities straight to my front mind yet again. It talked about symptoms that I felt sure I had, nausea, dizziness, clumsiness, strange thinking and forgetfulness. I had them all, could this be a tumor? I felt the fear spread throughout my body and tears welling to the back of my eyes. But then guess what? I remembered this was a common pattern whenever I was about to make a huge breakthrough in life. It’s the method that the enemy uses to force me to back off and not to take action. How many times have I experienced it? This was an old trick, I was catching on now to it.

Ladies, I don’t know what that bump is, but whatever it is I am ready. I mean that with every fibre of my being, because if its fatal and life threatening I trust God that maybe my life’s purpose has been fulfilled or will be through this and if it’s not then I knew I have lots of work to keep doing. I am at that point now where nothing is going to stop me from going after my dream. We are never really sure of what we are called to do until we are doing it and that feeling that ‘this is it’! I have had a taste of that feeling and I am hungry for more. Don’t you want to taste that feeling of reaching your true destiny? Doing what you were called to do? Living the life that you want to live?

I had a compelling feeling that I needed to share this with you, someone needed to hear this today. I am ready to be obedient and go where I am called, lead where I am led, ladies are you?

 

Stay happy and blessed my loves,

Zanny

P.S. If this is you right now, ladies send me a message and we can schedule a call. Don’t live a mediocre life, live the life that you want to live. I am here to help you do just that.

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